TRUSTWORTHY.....................

ok...hari teman tak tau nape,....tapi teman agak down......mungking sebab banyak tengok angka kowt...entahlah....teman pown fening.....kadang2 teman fikit, patut ka teman ubah diri teman???dari 'berlakon' kuat kepada diri teman yang lembik n lembab?????patut ka?????teman jadi betol2 matang dari berlagak jadi 'kanak2 rebena'????????should i????????????

there's sumting that disturb my mind......that make me can't focus on my study.....well, it not a big deal actually....but, when it comes to a feeling, i seriously can't control it.....

oh my god!!!!m i fall in love?????gosh....of coz no......!!!!i start to be cold hearted after sick being played lie a doll...come on.....even i'm rough, n childish sumtimes, i still have feeling...n might be more sensitve than other....i juz act to be strong to make people give me sum respect....n of coz not to be annoying.....

whoa.....what a broken english......shut up!!!!what do i care????practice make perfect isn't it???n i wan to practice my english.....so, what do u care if my english is sucks?????i don't care wat u wanna say......get off from my life if u don't like it......

what happen to me?????why i be so annoying today????y suddently i change???not be 'kanak2 rebena' or whatsoever????damn......i don't noe.....juz sumting disturb me recently......

ok.....i have question here........if u trust sum1, but sum1 not trust u back, wat will u feel???err...i think tis question should be ask to me isn't it????ok...fine....i admit that i hard to trust people....but now i start to learn how to trust people......n plez. don't destroy my trustirity.....

i hate when people tell me half of the story.....it's like gif me a piece of cake n then take it back....oh come on.....once u tell me plez tell me till the end can u?????it will make me curious...n i will think many bad things......

i'm willing to help u no matter how tough ur problem......even i can't help u, i can be a good listener.....maybe u don't wan to mess me my ur prob..ok...i get it....but u tell me half of the story, i u promise to finish it.....but u still mot tell me.....u not trust me don't u?????

"a friend in deed as a friend in need"....remember that phrase??(ok..correct me if i'm wrong.....not so sure..)u used to say to me before........u noe what, i feel sad when i noe u first, i noe u very well, i noe most of ur secret,but when u have a big prob, u noe telling me, but tell sum1 that u juz noe less than 1 year.....

i feel that i'm not usefull to u anymore.....i feel that i'm not ur best fren anymore....i feel that i'm important anymore.......if i do sumting bad, or break my promise to u, tell me plez...we are fren isn't it???don't hide it from me because it gonna hurt me.......

i miss the time that we can spend time together.....laugh, talk, n cry together.....when u have prob u share wif me...n when i have prob i share wif u.....i miss that moment damn much......so, i juz wanna ask u sumting, 1 thing only.....

"ARE U STILL TRUST ME AS UR BEST FRIEND???"

answer me if u have the answer....if u don't have the answer, it's ok...i won't force u to tell me.......i' m not the person who like to force people to tell me sumting......i respect u as my best fren...n i still trust u even u not tell me the truth....i still best fren consider u as my best friend forever even we lest talk, sms, n meet each other....

i noe u busy....i get it n i understand it so much.....so, u don't wory k...sooner or later i'll be fine........i' ll pretend that u never tell me nothing......so, keep ur secret ya.....it's ok 4 u to not telling me...i understand........

damn...i don't noe what happen to me????y i feel that sum1 hurt me damn much????y i feel like i've been betrayed?????y??????i hate this feeling bcoz it decreased my trustirity to sum1......YA ALLAH...help me........make tis bad feeling fade away..plezzzzz!!!!!!!

p/s: to sum1, i love our frenship as i love my life.......our frenship is more important than love to me....i'm willing to lost lover rather than i lost our friendship....so, tell me if i do sumting wrong........